Greetings dear readers / salam buat para pembaca

Knowing that I say it better in writing, and I do love writing, I decided to write my experiences and thoughts in this blog so this is my e-diary.

Don't speak Indonesian? No need to worry, it is written both in Indonesian and in English.

Happy Reading, everybody !
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Buat saya mengungkapkan isi hati dan pemikiran lebih gampang dilakukan dalam bentuk tulisan dan karena saya juga senang menulis, saya memutuskan menulis hal-hal yang saya alami dan yang ada dalam pikiran saya dalam blog ini.

Untuk yang tidak bisa berbahasa Indonesia, jangan khawatir, blog ini saya tulis dalam bahasa Indonesia dan Inggris.

Selamat membaca !

Friday, October 29, 2010

di rumah, batak .. (tapi kok) di sekolah putri solo ?

Harus di akui rata2 manusia itu jagoan kandang ... eits, jangan tersinggung ya ... kenyataannya memang begitu kok karena rasa aman berada dihabitatnya bikin kita jadi sebebas-bebasnya 'mengekspresikan' diri tanpa di tahan2 ..

misalnya, di rumah atau di kantor kita berasa bisa berkelakuan & bertingkah laku sesuai keaslian kepribadian & sifat kita dibandingin dengan kalo kita ada di luar rumah atau di luar kantor ... bikin sering kita terkaget-kaget denger atau liat kontrasnya pembawaan seseorang saat ybs berada di dalam & di luar habitatnya ..

"iya nih, saya juga heran kenapa di rumah dia Batak tapi kok di sekolah dia putri solo" seorang ibu 1/2 megeluh mengometari kelakuan anak perempuannya

"betul, bu .. aku liat sendiri di rumah dia teriak2, bercada, ngomong suaranya keras, lari kesana kemari, main sama adiknya rame banget" tambah evelyn yang pernah bertamu ke rumah murid kita yang satu ini & di sana terheran-heran ngeliat anak yang sama bertingkah laku 180 derajat beda banget dengan kalo di sekolah

di sekolah suaranya pelan banget kalo ngomong ... pokoke putri solo abizz ! he he he .... bikin aku & evelyn jadi sering harus ber-"hah ? apa ?" ke dia. bukan karena kita lagi ngeledekin dia tapi karena bener2 kita jadi berasa kayak orang budeg banget kalo tu anak lagi ngomong ... he he he ...

sampe sekarang pun kita juga masih sering bingung kenapa anak ini belon bisa berasa aman & nyaman sepenuhna kalo ada di dalam kelas padahal aku & evelyn bukan guru yang 'garang' .... emang di kata macan kalee ... garang ... he he he ...

& sebetulnya dengan jumlah murid TK A yang cuma 14 anak bikin suasana kelas ga terlalu hiruk pikuk, jadi ga sulit juga buat anak saling kenal.

malah makin lama makin terasa kita seperti satu keluarga besar karena meminjam istilah evelyn, guru TK A okem maksudnya merujuk ke aku gitu ... he he he ... karena aku bisa ngobrol ama anak seakan-akan kita teman sebaya, mau main uber-uberan sama mereka, bisa asyik di ajak bercanda ... ya, jangan heran aja kalo liat muridku bisa nyantai aja meluk, nyium, minta di gendong atau di garukin ampe ngegelitikin aku atau malah main ledek-ledekan sambil ngejulurin lidah ... so ga berasa kagok deh buat anak saling bergaul atau bergaul dengan gurunya ... jadi ngapain juga kok masih berasa malu2 ?

ya, mudah-mudahan dengan berjalannya waktu & bertambahnya umur anak didik kami yang satu ini mengalami perkembangan positif. pokoknya jangan pernah berhenti berdoa, berusaha & berharap ... Tuhan pasti menolong ..
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We've to admit that most of us is a cock at home or at work, in the place(s) where we feel is our safe habitat makes us tend to feel free to show our real faces ...

how many times people surprise you when they show their 2 faces. the face they've at home or work can be a huge different with the face they put when they're not home or at work.

"I wonder wh she's a complete different person at home & in school" a mom complained half in despair, half in amazement about her daughter

"true" said eveln who once withnessed it when she visited her house "at home she talks loudly, screaming, running, she's very noisy"

in school she's quiet & talks so soft that evelyn & I have to "huh? ... what ? ... how's that ?" to her whenever she speaks to us not because we tease her but because she really makes us feel like there were some thing wrong with our hearings .. lol

we still don't know wh she hasn't feel completely safe & comfortable in class since evelyn & I aren't stern teachers, not as if we were 2 fierce lions .. lol ...

& beside, with the onl 14 kids in our class it's supposed to make it less noisy & also easy to get to know & make friends with one another ...

plus evelyn & I are also creating an atmosphere where we're all feel like a one big family.

so don't be surprised if you see me chat with kids as if we were contemporaries or playing chase each other, joking around, tickle one another or seeing the kids feel free to hug or kiss me or even ask me to carry them, to scratch an itchy back / leg ... to sometimes making faces or sticking out the tongue in jokey mood ...

so with all that, they should have feel at ease with one another, no need to feel shy ...

well, hopefully time along with growing up will make our one particular kid makes positive progress. never stop praying, do the best & be optimist .. God will help ..

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Kejamnya cuaca / extreme weather ..

Sementara Jogyakarta di "kunjungi" ama awan panas dari gunung Merapi, gunung Salak di Bogor dari kemaren udah diselubungi awan hujan. ga perlu ramalan cuaca kalo udah gitu buat tau hari ini bakal ujan atau ga karena tu gunung akan meniupkan awan2 ujan ke atas kota & .... byur ... ujan pun turun siangnya.

kemaren menjelang kita2 mo pulang dari sekolah ... eh, ujan gede banget .. weh, terpaksa sepatu kets aku nginap di sekolah karena aku pulang bersandal jepit ... ya, dari pada jadi basah kuyup tu sepatu nantinya ..

so Rabu (27/10) pagi ini aku ke sekolah pake sandal itu lagi ... he he he ... untung ga ketemu siapa2 di sepanjang jalan ... karena males cerita kalo ada yang nanya kenapa kok pake sandal jepit ..

siangnya ... yaaaa ... ujan gede ... basah juga d ahirnya sepatuku ... besok jadi terpaksa harus pake pantofel item yang solnya tipis & udah rada bluwek itu ... ga ada pilihan. sepatu2 lain ga enak sih buat di pake buat berkeliaran  ... he he he ...

cuaca tahun ini balik ke aslinya cuaca Bogor yang 365 harinya pol musim ujan. tapi ya ... banyak orang tepar jadinya .. dasar apes, itu juga termasuk aku ... he he he .. di bikin K.O. ama pilek. nah, habis pilek, datanglah batuk .. anda sungguh beruntung ... he he he ...

udah 2 malam ini aku baru bisa tidur setelah punggung di sanggah 2 bantal. kalo ga gitu ... mmm... di jamin melek semaleman gara2 batuk ga berenti2 ..

hari ini malah berasa sakit tenggorokan kalo nelen. duh, ga enaknya ... mana jadi guru kan artinya volume suara harus di setel lebih kencang ... ya, kalo bu guru ngomong bisik2, siapa yang mo denger .. ngomong keras aja masih dicuekin apa lagi kalo suaranya sayup2 ... he he he ... resiko jabatan ...

pagi ini Justin muncul di sekolah bikin aku melongo .. ampe nyokapnya ketawa geli jadinya ...

"keren amat tu kacamata" aku nyengir

"kaca mata spiderman, bu" dengan bangga dia pamer kacamata barunya ..

"tukeran yuk..."

& Justin pun terkekeh ..

wah, dari pagi aku udah dikerubutin ama Sekar, Dea & Farell dalam kelas ...

"main dong sana" kataku ngusir "syuh ... hush ...."

"emangnya kita ayam" Dea ketawa

"main noh di luar" aku jadi ga konsen nulisin soal di buku les anak TK B "ngapain nongkrongin bu guru di sini ?"

"ga ah" Sekar ambil tanganku & di ciumnya. Dea latah. Farell cuma mesem2 aja liat tingkah 2 temennya itu .. yah .. tapi aku ga bener2 bisa 'marah' ngadepin gangguan2 kayak gitu karena mereka adalah pelarianku dari suasana rumah yang amat sangat kontras .. sepi, menghadapi 2 manula yang belakangan ini silih berganti di hinggapi penyakit ...

anak2 adalah narkoba untuk aku. kalo sehari ga ketemu mereka, sakaw lah aku ... he he he ...
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While Jogyakarta, a town in Central Java, has been showered by dust & hot clouds following Mt. Merapi erruption, Mt. Salak in Bogor has been spreading rainy clouds all over the town making us get lots of rain in the past 3 days.

it was pouring rain yesterday just when we were about to go home so my shoes spent a night at school as I went home on school's sandals .. lol ..

but today ... rain caught me on my way home & ... my dear shoes are wet ... sigh .. I've to wear my black shoes to school tomorrow ... the ones that I don't like ..

this year's weather has returned to Bogor's original weather of 365 of rainy days. lots of people get sick because of that .. unfortunately that including me .. cold knocked me out & after that cough takes turn knocking me out ... sigh ...

I've been sleeping with 2 pillows supporting my back at night or cough would keep me awake the whole night ...

This morning Justin showed up in school with spiderman mask on his face. his mom couldn't help not to laugh seeing my puzzle look when I stared at his son .. lol ...

"that's a cool mask you have there" I smiled

"spiderman" he showed it off to me

"can I borrow it for today?"

& he laughed ...

Sekar, Dea & Farell were all over me this morning making me difficult to consentrate on writing quiz for the tutoring kids

"go play" I told them "hush ...hush ... sush .. "

"what are we ? chicken ?" Dea laughed

"why don't you all go play outside & leave me alone" I waved my hands at them

"nope" Sekar took my hand & kissed it ..., Dea did that too ... Farell grinned ...

I couldn't really angry at them of course. they cheer me up. it's so different with at home which is quiet & occupies by 2 elderly who seems to take turn of getting sick lately ...

the kids are my drugs ... I'm so hooked to them & I'd go carzy if I don't meet them for a day ... lol ...

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Pintu WC tanpa gerendel ... hiks ... hiks ... / latchless toilet door ... sigh ..

Sedih banget hari ini (Selasa, 26/10) karena tiap kali mo pipis di sekolah, terpaksa aku harus geret2 dulu kursi lipat yg udah berkarat itu dari tempat nangkringnya di tembok depan wc masuk juga ke dalam wc. lha, buat apa ? ... buat ngeganjel pintu wc dari dalam ... kok jadi primitif gitu sih ?

ya karena pintu wc yg baru di ganti kira2 3 bulan lalu jadi ga bisa di kunci dari dalam karena kemaren waktu aku lagi pipis, anak2 lelaki dari kelas TK B lagi main kejar2an.

nah, 2 anak berdiri di depan pintu wc. kemudian datang seorang temannya yang lain, dia lari kencang & entah apa yang ada di benak pikirannya karena dia langsung dorong pintu wc.

untuk aja urusanku di dalam wc udah kelar tapi sayangnya aku belon sempet buka pintu so ga bisa dihindarin lagi ... patahlah penahan selot pintu itu karena begitu kerasnya di dorong. & selot gerendel malang itu bukan yang terbuat dari besi tapi dari plastik yang memang sudah jadi 1 set dalam pintu itu.

dalam 5 tahun aku kerja jadi guru, bisa aku itung dengan jari berapa kali aku ketemu anak yang bikin ulah sedemikian rupa ampe sempet bikin pandangan mataku sekejap gelap saking kalap marah ... & insiden pintu wc kemarin itu adalah salah satunya ...

& minta ampun susahnya nahan emosi ... duh ...

so kalo kalian denger berita ada guru yang kelepasan keluarin omongan atau tindakan sampai melukai murid secara mental atau fisik, mohon dengan amat sangat untuk jangan cepat menarik kesimpulan atau menghakimi karena apapun profesi kita, diri ini tetaplah terdiri dari darah & daging yang punya sejuta kelemahan & kekurangan.

& ga peduli setinggi apa pun penilaian kita atau penilaian orang lain terhadap diri kita, ingatlah kita tetap mahluk yang jauh dari sempurna ..

tapi untuk yang kesekian kalinya pula aku mendapat tambahan pengetahuan bahwa segala sesuatu yang ada di sekolah atau rumah sebaiknya terbuat dari karet atau besi sekalian yang ga gampang patah, somplak atau copot ... he he he ...

meja di kelas sebaiknya di pantek paten ke lantai (aku pernah datang ke TK yang udah nerapin hal ini), lemari sebaiknya terbuat dari kayu jati yang berat & punya pintu hingga kalo tersenggol atau tertabrak anak, ga gampang tumbang & semua yang ada di lemari tsb ga usah jadi pada melayang jatuh ..

karena berurusan sama anak kecil ... wah, bahkan anak remaja sekalipun yang kita nilai sudah lebih bisa bernalar & berakal tapi toh cara pemikiran mereka kadang ga masuk akal & itu bisa menghasilkan perbuatan2 yang 'aneh' .. tambahan juga karena mereka cenderung untuk ngikutin kata hatinya maka kita orang2 dewasa di sekitar mereka mau ga mau harus ikut kreatif dalam membuat hal2 preventif .. ya ... capee d .. tapi apa boleh buat ...
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It saddened me that everytime I went to school's toilet I had to take rotten folded chair that always leans on the nearby wall into the toilet to be used to hold its door from inside.

a boy from the class for the 5 year olds were playing with his classmates when he ran fast & pushed the toilet's door, breaking the latch instantly.

I was inside the toilet at that time. luckily I was tidying myself after peed but I wasn't leaving it quick enough before the boy pushed the door so it was un-avoidable ...

I can count with the fingers on my hands how many incidents that made me nearly lost my sanity in my 5 years work time in this school & yesterday's incident (Monday, Oct 25th) was one of them ...

I really lost myself control yesterday ...

so if you hear a teacher lost his or her temper ended up in hurting a student physically or mentally, please don't be so quick to make one side conclusion or judgement because whatever our profession is we are just flesh & blood with millions of weaknesses & imperfectness.

no matter how high we value or others value ourselves please remember that we can still do mistakes ..

however, that incident have shown me that school or house should be better to have the things made from rubber or iron to make them dent proof, break proof & detached proof ... lol ...

school better have the desks nailed to the floor (infact I once saw a kindergarten that has done this) & the shelves & cupboards made from heavy wood with drawers so if for some reason a kid ran into it, it won't fall & its contents won't have to be flown out ..

because if you're dealing with kids .. even teenagers whom we think have better reasoning .. their way of thinking still could turn into unreasonable doing or behaviour & since they tend to follow their impulse mind, we adults have to be creative in making prevention ..

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

kampret ? karpret ? ... ??

Senin pagi (25/10) ini tumben datang2 Sekar langsung ngomong "wangi" sambil ngulurin boneka kelinci putih kecil punyanya "abis di cuci"

hmmm .. betul, kataku sambil mengendus bonek itu tapi masih heran sekaligus seneng kok Sekar yg biasanya irit ngomong pagi ini bisa jadi sedikit 'rame' gara2 bonek ini

karena tema pelajaran tentang binatang so dari minggu lalu aku minta anak2 di kelasku kalo punya boneka binatang tolong di bawa dong ke sekolah. malah hari Sabtu lalu aku ikut bawa boneka babi punyaku juga .. he he he ...

hari ini lebih banyak yg bawa bonek & lebih vatiatif pula .. bagus ... evelyn malah bawa boneka ulat & kodok punya anaknya ampe di tanyain "buat apaan, ma?" .. he he he ...

Vivien bawa boneka kucing, Echa boneka babi yg mirip guling .. he he he .. Michelle bonek kelinci, Stevany bebek & Stevanky kepiting biarpun kemaren sore mamanya sms aku nanyain apa bener di suruh bawa boneka .. Stevanky anak laki, ga punya boneka .. yee .. boneka apa dulu dong yg di minta buat di bawa .. he he he ...

Justin mo ngadat karena liat temen2 bawa boneka trus pengen pulang ambil boneka spidermannya .. ya, besok kan masih bisa, Justin .. ga usah jadi ngotot gitu dong ... bu Keke aja ga bawa boneka kok ...

"ibu bawa waktu kita duduk di kampret ya?" katanya serius

ah ?? .. waktu kita apa ? .. kok kupingku kayaknya nangkep kata yg rada aneh ... apa d, Justin ? duduk di mana ?

"itu bu ..." Justin ngulangi "karpret"

ha ?? ... kampret ? karpret ? .. otakku muter. rada susah konsen karena aku udah mulai geli tapi berusaha nahan ketawa karena Justin lagi serius banget

yah, toh ahirnya ketawaku meledak juga ga tertahan lagi setelah aku ngerti maksudnya. bukan kampret atau  karpret tapi karpet ! he he he ... oalah, nak ... nak ...

hari Sabtu ada ibadah di sekolah yg bertempat di kelas TK A so tiap Sabtu di gelar karpet di ruang kelas TK A. & hari Sabtu kemaren aku bawa boneka babi punyaku ke sekolah. itu maksud Justin tadi ...

aduh, kakiku di injek anak ! tu kaki udah kecil makin jadi kecil d karena keinjek. kalo kerja di sekolahan, "keselamatan" kaki & sepatu terancam so jangan pake sepatu terbuka kalo ga mo lecet karena keinjek anak
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Sekar, the girl with few words surprised me this Monday morning (Oct 25th) when she said "fragrant" & handed me her little white bunny doll "it's been washed"

mmmm ... it sure does, I burried my nose in it, still surprised but also happy she was 'chatty' because of the doll

we're learning about animals so since last week I've asked the kids in my class to bring their animal character dolls to school if they have it. I've even brought my piggy doll last Saturday.

more kids brought their dolls today. good. even evelyn brought her daughter's frog & worm dolls though she was asked "what is that for, mom?"

Sekar & Michelle brought their bunny dolls, Vivien brought cat doll, Echa brought piggy doll that looks like a bolster, Stevany brought duck doll & Stevanky brought crab doll though his mom texted me yesterday saying that he doesn't have a doll, he's a boy ... well, it's not a girly girl doll that I asked to bring to class..

Justin nearly had tantrum upon seeing his classmates brought dolls & he wanted to go home to get his spiderman doll. oh come on ..., you can bring it to class tomorrow, I told him, I don't bring my doll today as you can see yourself ..

"oh yeah, you've brought it when we sat on campret" he said being dropped dead serious

a what ? ... I thought I heard a weird word, say that again, Justin ..

"there .. when we sat on carpret" he still deadly serious

what's that ? .. campret ? carpret ? I thought hard to understand what words were they though it was hard to consentrate because I tried not to laugh

well yeah ... at the end I couldn't hold my laugh anymore especially after I understood what he was trying to say & that was "carpet" that Justin misspelled it as campret & then carpret ... lol ...

school held service every Saturday & it takes place in our class so we put the carpet on the floor. I brought my piggy doll last saturday. that's what Justin was trying to say .. oh my ... lol ...

ouch !! a kid stepped on my foot ! it's a small feet, you know .. I think it became smaller after a kid stepped on it. ... lol ... if you work in school, there's always the ever present danger to the safety of your feet & shoes so better wear thick shoes that covers the whole of your feet ..

howcome satan don't have weekends ? / kenapa ya para setan ga ada liburnya ?

"ih March, kok kaos kakinya bolong" bisikku sambil dg jail ngegelitikin kelingking kaki kiri anak lelaki itu yg nongol dari balik lobang di kaos kakinya itu. aku duduk di dekatnya waktu ibadah hari Sabtu ini (23/10)

he he he ... bolong masih mending dari pada kalo duduk deket anak yg kaos kakinya "bau jempol" .. tau dong aromanya kayak gimana .. he he he ... evelyn pernah ampe mo terkoek-koek karenanya .. aku sih ga sampe segitu tapi ya lumayan bikin bulu idungku jadi kuning semua ... he he he .. lebay, ah ..

ada 'seni' tersendiri untuk bikin anak bisa & mau bersikap anteng & tertib selama ibadah. cobaannya segudang soalnya .. dari mulai g sibuk ngobrol sendiri, bercanda, gangguin temen ampe ke perkara ingus .. !!

eh, beneran ... karena di tengah2 ibadah tiba2 ... hatsyiiihii ! ... Justin bersin & ... mm ...

"bu .. bu ... !!" teteh, si petugas kebersihan sekolah yg duduk di samping Justin kelopokan manggil2 aku yg tanpa di omongin pun langsung ngerti ... segulung tisu pun segera di oper karena ... ya .. you know lah ... he he he ...

kalo ga gangguan2 di atas tadi, nyanyinya semangat banget. ya namanya anak kecil yg belon bisa ngatur volume suaranya so ...

"stop! stop !" kalo aku yg pas jadi MC, aku bakal suruh mereka berenti nyanyi "itu nyanyi apa teriak2 sih ?"

kalo volume suara ok, semangat nyanyinya bisa bersaing sama para supporter tim sepak bola yg lagi bertanding ... he he he ..

"ok .. kita memuji Tuhan penuh semangat ampe genteng sekolah terbang semua" kataku tanpa maksud melucu tapi ya ga anak, ga guru, ga emak2nya .. semua pada ketawa ... ??? ... aku serius lho .. he he he ...

atau malah ada yg mo jadi berantem .. alamak ... !! lagi ibadah ni judulnya .. kok ya bisa sempet2nya mo berantem ??

maklum, ada aja anak yg 'sensi' ga boleh ke dorong, ke colek, ke senggol, ke injek dikit aja bawaannya udah mo nyolot. tapi kalo liat gini bisa disimpulkan naluri 'buas' manusia udah ada bahkan dari umur yang kata orang di sebut sebagai 'belon kenal dosa' .. he he he ... aku boleh jadi bukan sarjana psikologi / teologi tapi tiap hari ada aja hal2 tentang manusia atau kehidupan yg ditunjukkin ke aku entah lewat diri anak2 atau orang2 dewasa di sekitarku ...

yg jelas, rasanya kalo lagi ibadah kok kayaknya semua setan dari neraka pada ikut hadir juga buat gangguin kita padahal ini kan akhir minggu. harusnya mereka kan pada libur ...atau mungkin kalo sehari aja ga gangguin kita pada jadi gatel semua kali badannya ya ... he he he .. kebayang ga sih para setan weekend di pantai sambil gegarukan semua ... he he he ... imajinasinya bu Keke gitu loh ..
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"March, your little toe is peeping" I wishpered to that little boy as I tickled it "through a hole in your socks" I sat next to him during saturday's service this Saturday (Oct 23rd).

I'd rather sit with a kid whose socks pierced than a smelly one ... that odour .. it once almost made evelyn threw up .. it didn't get to me though it did made the hair in my nostril turned yellow ... lol ...

it needs quiete a way to make the kids able to behave throughout the service. plenty of disturbance in store ... you name it ... from make their own conversation to joking, teasing & .... even mucus ...

yes, it did happen & not just once, sycg as in today's service when all of sudden Justin sneezed & ... yikes !

"ma'am .. ma'am ..." school's cleaning lady who sat next to him franticaly waved her hands to me who got the message .. in just a second a roll of tissue was passed to her ... lol ..

& if none of the above disturbances, the kids who haven't able to control their voice volume made me felt as if we were a bunch of deaf people singing ..

"stop ! stop !" if I was the MC, I'd stop them "we're singing, not shouting" ... lol ...

when voice volume is ok, they sing in great enthusiasm as if they were watching soccer game .. lol ..

"ok, so we praise the Lord in great spirit that made school's roof blown away" I spoke as I meant it so I was surprised everyone laughed .. lol ..

or a fight would occur .. yes, in the middle of the service ! certain kids are so tetchy that a single touch from other kid would set them off. seeing this made me conclude that every man has ruthlessness instinct even from young age .. the age that we called 'sinless' .. I may not have psychology or theology degree but there's no one  single day passing without facts of life shown to me through these kids or the people around me ..

one thing for sure is it feels as if everytime we've service the whole satan from hell came to attend it & what do you know .. it's weekend. aren't they suppose to be off ? or they'd get itch all over their bodies if they let one day pass without bring trouble to man on earth ?

picture this : the satans were on the beach on their weekends & they were busy scratching their bodies ... lol ..

Monday, October 25, 2010

kids, you soothe my troubled heart / anak2, kalian adalah penghibur hatiku

Jumat (22/10) pagi kita udah siap barisin anak2 buat ngajak mereka jalan keliling2 waktu wali kelas TK B nyamperin aku ...

"Ke, kita di suruh senam" bisiknya "emak yg nyuruh"

yah, senam lagi ... senam lagi ... udah 2 Jumat ini kita olah raganya senam mulu

"ya udah d" kataku. mo bilang apa lagi ? kepsek yg nyuruh "kita ikutin aja apa maunya biar ga jadi bahan perkara lagi" dah 2 hari ini kepsek auranya negatif. tau ni hari dia mo angot lagi atau ga tapi lebih baik kita jangan sediain bahannya

yang jelas hari ini aku rada jaga jarak ama kepsek karena terus terang aja aku kesel & rada tersinggung dg ulahnya kemaren yg murang maring ga karuan juntrungan.

Pikir2 dari pada aku kepancing jadi nyolot & kita jadi bertengkar, mending sebisanya menghindar ..

ah, mending cari hiburan d di kelas TK B ... he he he .. kebetulan aku memang ni hari jadwalnya ngajar bahasa Inggris di situ. jadi jam 9 teng aku udah menongolkan diri di kelas itu yg langsung berubah dari tenang jadi rame ... yah gitu d .. ibu Keke punya banyak fans di sekolah ... he he he ...

siapa yg sudah selesai tugasnya, buku di kumpul di depan ya ... kataku & ...

"udah selesai" Calvin nyerahin bukunya & langsung meluk "aku sayang ibu" katanya manja ... duh ..

beberapa saat kemudian Anggi dengan senyum lebar nyerahin bukunya & ... hei ..! aku terkikik geli karena dia ngelitikin telingaku ... dasar ... he he he ... pantes dia datang sambil senyam senyum gitu ... rupanya udah punya niat mo ngegelitikin aku ..

"ibu ..!!" Irene lebih antik lagi gaya nyerahin bukunya. langsung loncat meluk aku & beringsut-ingstu manjat naik .. eh, di kata bu Keke pohon kelapa apa di panjat gitu ? kataku sambil tarik dia naik ke gendonganku yg bikin dia ketawa kesenangan .. he he he

"bu Keke punya bayi!" teriak Wilson di sambung ketawa temen2nya. tapi Irene ga marah, mukanya malah cerah banget ... ah, anak2ku .. kalian memang matahariku. mendung di hatiku ga akan betah berlama-lama kalo ada kalian ..

tiba2 "bu Keke!" aku denger suara Justin teriak manggil dari kelas sebelah. TK A & B cuma di pisah sama 4 loker & 1 rak plastik setinggi dadaku.

"apa, Justin?" aku berjinjit melongokkan kepala lewat rak plastik itu supaya bisa ngeliat Justin yg duduk di belakang

"tolongin.." Justin rupanya kerepotan di suruh ngerjain tugasnya

"coba dong" kataku

"ga bisa"

"coba dulu. bu Keke masih harus ngajar di sini" kataku serba salah. mau rasanya langsung terbang ke kelas sebelah buat nolongin dia tapi itu ga ngedorong dia untuk belajar mandiri & mau berupaya sendiri.

ah, anak2ku, kami disini berusaha sebaik mungkin mempersiapkan kalian menghadapi bagian demi bagian dari kehidupan ini walaupun prosesnya kadang ga nyenengin contohnya ya kayak sekarang ini, Justin harus belajar berupaya & aku belajar untuk menahan naluriku untuk ga langsung nolong dia tiap kali dia menghadapi kesulitan / tantangan ...
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We were ready to line up & took a walk this Friday morning (Oct 22nd) when the teacher in the class for the 5 year olds came to me

"headmaster told us to do exercise for P.E." she wishpered

well, what can we say if that's what headmaster ordered us to do, I said to her. headmaster has been having negative aura in the past 2 days. don't know if she'd have tantrum or not today but we better not provide her with "gasoline & matches" so she could throw a fireball at us.

I'm keeping a safe distant with headmaster because I'm honestly upset & a bit offended by her attitude yesterday (I've written about it under the title 'headmaster had tantrum'). I'm avoiding open conflict. it wouldn't be a good thing to be seen or heard if I have a quarrel with headmaster.

I'd better seek things to cheer me up in the class for the 5 year olds as today is english there so I came in at 9 am, turning the quiet class into a loud one as the kids called out my name excitedly .. so I've fans in school .. lol ..

please put your book here if you're done with your drawing, I told them & ..

"I'm done" Calvin handed me his book & hugged me "I love you" he said affectionately

a moment later Anggi handed me her book & hey .. !! I laughed when she tickled my ear .. so that's why you come with that smile, eh .. ?? you were up to something .. I told her as she laughed merrily ..

Irene did her own way to hand her book "miss Keke !" she called me out as she ran to me, hugged me & jumped up to me then crawled up .. whoa ! .. what would you think of me ? a coconut tree ? I said to her as I pulled her up & carried her making her laugh happily ..

"miss Keke has a baby !" shouted Wilson followed by the laugh of the kids but that didn't upset Irene. her face was bright with joy .. my beloved kids .. you're my sun. dark cloud can't stay long if you're near me ...

but suddenly .. "miss Keke!" I heard Justin called out

the 2 classes are divided only by 4 lockers & a chest high plastic shelf. I had to tiptoe as I peaked through the shelf to see him sitting in the back row.

"what's it ?"

"help me"

"give it a try"

"I can't"

"try, Justin. I still have class here" I really wanted to go there right away to help him but I know I won't push him to be independent & to try to his task by himself ..

kids, it's our job to prepare you to face the world one step at a time though the proccess isn't pleasant such as what Justin faced today to learn doing his task by himself & I learn to hold myself not to come to his side to rescue him right away ... it's hard sometimes ..

Sunday, October 24, 2010

kepsek berulah / headmaster had tantrum

5 anak absen di kelasku. jadi ya lumayan sepi hari ini (Kamis, 21/10). orang dewasa aja berasa banget capeknya sepulang dari Kidzania kemaren apalagi anak2. sukur aja anak2 yg masuk ga terganggu kemampuan belajarnya setelah mengalami 1 hari yg melelahkan kemaren. mereka malah sepanjang hari ini penuh semangat & tetap ceria ..

lagi enak2 ngajar di kelas sambil cerita2 tentang pengalaman kemaren di Kidzania, tiba2 kepsek masuk ke kelas. biasa ... tanpa ba bi bu permisi langsung interupsi nanyain soal majalah Tiko yg di titip jual di TK kita. aku jawab cuma 12 anak yg beli dari total murid TK A yg 14 anak.

nah, ga cuma itu, trus langsung nyelonong ambil bungkusan sisa majalah Tiko sambil ngomong keras "udah, TK A ga usah beli Tiko lagi" & lewatin aku begitu aja, masuk ke kelas PG (Playgroup) & brak .. ! pintu di banting ..

tinggalah aku & evelyn jadi saling pandang-pandangan keheranan & bingung

"ga sopan amat" gerutu evelyn kesel

dalam hati aku juga mikir begitu. sukur aja di luar kelas ga ada ortu murid. kalo ada ... wah, kelakuan seorang kepsek tadi bisa memberi kesan apa di mata mereka ? bisa2 malah citranya yg udah kurang ok makin tambah ga ok ..

tau ada apanya ama kepsek. dari kemaren auranya negatif. sepanjang di Kidzania dia muter2 mantau guru2 ampe ahirnya 6 anak yg dalam kelompoknya kocar kacir mencar di bawa guru lain / ortu murid.

setiap kali dia datang, bukannya bilang 'hai, gimana ? kalian udah ke permainan mana aja ? semua ok ? semua senang ? lancar ?' ... wih, adanya yg keluar omongan model 'udah ke pabrik ... ? udah ke permainan ... ? kok baru di sini ? kenapa baru di sini ? ini kok anak2 pada ga baris ? ga bisa baris ? coba kamu ..'

suer, biar pun Dion ngadat & Vivien histeris tapi yg bikin aku puyeng bukan mereka tapi kepsek ... he he he ... ahirnya tiap kali lagi kita jalan ngider & aku liat ada dia ... wah, langsung ... putar ... sengaja ambil jalur beda atau masuk antri ke permainan terdekat biar ga harus berpapasan apa lagi ampe harus di tegor dia .. he he he ... lebih baik menghindar d ...

evelyn ceritanya juga sama ... malah dia kurang beruntung karena tiap kali kepsek datang dia lagi duduk ngaso sambil nungguin anak2 dalam kelompoknya masuk bermain. biar pun liat kalo anak2 itu aman & asik sibuk bermain tapi tetap aja kecipratan kena komentar / tegoran negatif ... he he he ...

pantesan aja tiap kali aku ketemu ama evelyn, mukanya tegang. bukan cuma karena capek tapi tegang kena aura negatifnya kepsek ...

"emang dasar apes kau" kataku & kita berdua jadi ketawa, yah, ketawa kecut jadinya ...

kalo di kira ngurus anak murid itu bikin puyeng ... hmm ... ngurus orang dewasa lebih bikin juling bin kriting ..
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5 kids were absent today (Thursday, Oct 21st). it's understandably if they got tired after went along in our field trip to Kidzania Theme Park yesterday. so it was quiet in class though the other 9 kids didn't lose their energy & joy.

I was talking infront of the class with the kids in my class about our trip yesterday when the door flung open & came the headmaster without saying sorry for the interruption, down to the point asked me about Tiko monthly children magazine that is sell in our school. I told her only 12 kids out of the total 14 kids in my class bought it this month.

then followed by her saying out loud "no more Tiko for this class" as she grabbed the rest of Tiko magazine from the class desk, walked passed me without saying a word & slammed the door leaving me & evelyn stared at each other puzzle ...

"how rude .." evelyn grummbled

I thought the same. thank God there were no parents outside our class. if they saw that scene ... what would they think of headmaster who already pictured not as a symphatetic figure ..

I don't know what happens to her but her aura is so negative since yesterday. she made her round to check up each of us at Kidzania & no such words such as 'how's it going, guys ? everything ok ? do u all have fun ?' no such thing ! instead, all she said was words like 'have u take the kids to here & there ? is it all that u have participated in ? just one ? why can't the kids make line ? can u make a line ?'

so when I took the kids in my group went on a round looking for other play role game that we'd join in & I saw headmaster I'd hurriedly take another road to avoid meeting her. it's better that way ..

if u think Dion's tantrum & Evelyn crying out were frustrating ... they were nothing compare to my stress to have to face the headmaster ... lol ..

evelyn's experience is the same. she was even got unlucky because everytime she met headmaster she was sitting as she waited the kids in her group while they were busy on joining playing certain role ...

"it's just ur luck" I teased her & we both laughed, bitter laugh ...

dealing with kid's tantrum is nothing if it compares with dealing with adult's tantrums ...

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Foto2 di Kidzania / Kidzania's Photos

The kids, parents & one of our teacher
on the bus in the way to Kidzania
anak2, ortu & wali kls TK B di dlm bis
dlm perjalanan ke Kidzania
ini foto-foto dari mulai berangkat sampai tiba di Kidzania


these are the photos from the time we left by bus to Kidzania to the time we got there


Keke & Dion
let's make a line, kids
baris dulu yuk ..


Keke, Vivien & her mom


       rame ..
       pusing ... 
       asik ...

lots of fun ...
entrance gate
pintu masuk
at gas station
di pom bensin

Keke & evelyn next to the passing by firefighter's car
aku & evelyn, 2 guru TK A. mejeng dulu ah pas ada
mobil pemadam lewat ... sehhh ..
at the newsroom playing role as reporters
di ruang jurnalis jd reporter ..

K I D Z A N I A

Ahirnya hari yg di tunggu datang juga ! Rabu , 20/10 ini kita ke Kidzania. 


yap, bisa di bilang semua datang tepat waktu so kira2 jam 7.10 pagi berangkatlah kita dg bis dari kecamatan Ciomas, Bogor ... yak, cabut !


aku duduk di belakang bareng evelyn, mamanya Ellen & mamanya Micky. anak2, kepsek & wali kelas TK B di depan kecuali ...


"Dion, duduk gih sana di depan sama temen2" kataku


tapi dari berangkat sampe pulang Dion, anak TK B itu bersikukuh duduk di sebelah aku.


wah, di tengah jalan mamanya Micky buka bekal ... mmm ... cumi ... kesukaanku .. 


"mau, bu? dia nyengir nawarin bekalnya sambil nyendokin nasi ke piring plastik kecil yg bikin aku geleng2 kepala geli. alamak, niat bener itu ampe bawa piring kecil segala .. he he he ... di kata mo piknik apa ?


tapi omong2, jadi ngiler d liat tu cumi so aku pun buka bekalku


"makan, bu?" mamanya Ellen ketawa, yg herannya ga tergoda ikutan laper liat 2 orang di dekatnya lagi makan


"mo krupuk, bu?" mama Michelle sigap nyodorin kerupuk bawaannya 


mmm ... kayak yg udah pernah aku tulis tentang pengalaman aku ngawal anak2 waktu ikutan lomba di Kebun Raya bulan lalu ... urusan logistik terjamin kalo jalan bareng emak2 ... he he he ... lha, liat aja sekarang ini. belon lama bis jalan, kantong2 cemilan udah beredar. dari yg namanya permen ampe kerupuk ada ... he he he ..


lagi asik2 makan tau2 Justin & mamanya datang ...


"sori bu, Justin kebelet pipis" kata mamanya Justin


suer, aku kira dia minta bis diberhentiin dulu. ga taunya ... aduh, untung aja aku ga keselek karena ketawa liat dia buka kantong plastik & ..... pipislah Justin di situ ... he he he ...


"bu, Dion pengen pipis" kata Dion beberapa menit kemudian


ampun ! kok ya jadi terinspirasi gitu setelah liat Justin pipis. duh, gimana nih ?


"bu, sori" kataku ke mamanya Justin yg baru aja selesai ngebungkus kantong kresek isi air kencing anaknya "Dion pengen pipis juga"


yah ... rame2lah yg lain ketawa


"emang dasar rejeki lu" evelyn ngakak ngeledekin mama Justin (sebelon anaknya keluar dari TK kita buat nerusin ke SD, evelyn memang udah gaul dg emak2 itu ... jadi mereka udah lama berteman sebagai sesama ortu murid. & ortu murid 2 angkatan terahir ini memang kompak banget)


so sembari senyum2 mamanya Justin buka lagi kresek itu & ... suuurrrr ... pipislah Dion ... he he he ...


wah, Jakarta makin keren aja rasanya. rupanya mamanya Micky juga sama2 mengagumi ibu kota. malah dia langsung sibuk foto2 pake kamera hpnya.  .. hmmm .. ternyata ada 2 rusa gunung masuk kota ya ... he he he ... noraknya jadi d ...


"tuh ... tuh ... gedung itu bagus" kataku "foto... foto ... eh, ntar upload ke fb ya biar aku bisa ambil juga" 


"sip" katanya nyengir 


nyampe Kidzania sebelon jam 9. lokasinya di Pacific Place Shopping Mall lt 6, Jl. Jend. Sudirman Kav 52-53, Kawasan Niaga Sudirman (SCBD), Jakarta 12190. deket komdak. gampang kok nyarinya 


wah, langsung mulai riuhnya nih. anak2 yg jumlahnya 29 itu di bagi dalam 2 barisan. 1 barisan buat cowo & barisannya lain buat cewe. jalan kok di giring rasa2 rombongan bebek aja nih ... 


lantas masuklah kita. waktu lagi antri di depan lift Farell mulai panik. langsung nyari tanganku, minta dipegangin. Calvin malah udah kenceng banget meluk pinggangku. untung liftnya kualitas top. jalannya mulus ga pake endul-endulan so aku bisa meyakinkan mereka naik lift itu ga nakutin kok ..


sampe di dalam ... wih, yg terpesona bukan cuma anak2 kalo anaknya sendiri ... mmm ... liat aja tuh contohnya Calvin yg malah berkali-kali ampe ampir di tabrak mobil pemadam, taxi, ambulans yg lagi hilir mudik ... he he he ... saking terbengong-bengongnya ... 


itu pertama kalinya aku masuk Kidzania ... ngggggg .. jadi pengen jadi anak kecil lagi .. ga adil, jaman aku kecil dulu mana ada model kayak gini ..


asli, 4 jam di sana ga berasa banget. ga ada capek. padahal entah berapa kilo aku udah jalan muter2 di situ ... he he he ...


sayangnya Kidzania masukin terlalu banyak pengunjung. yg aku perhatiin TK aja ada 4, SD ada 3. rasanya kita yg rombongannya paling dikit jumlah pesertanya karena waktu lagi duduk ngaso nungguin 6 anak dlm kelompokku, aku sempet ngobrol dg ortu murid dari SD di Jakarta yg rombongannya ada 200 orang ! so bisa aja ada 1000 pengunjung pada sesi pagi hari Rabu ini ...




ortu murid & aku berpendapat jumlah pengunjung terlalu banyak itu malah bikin suasana jadi kurang nyaman. udah antrian jadi lama, kita terbirit-birit ngegeret-geret anak2 karena takut kehabisan waktu. jadi rasanya nilai pendidikannya kurang maksimal di serap anak2. mending kalo anaknya daya tangkapnya tinggi ... kalo yg masih banyak bengongnya ... gimana coba ? apa yg di ingatnya dari kunjungan kita di Kidzania ?




aku terhitung beruntung bisa masuk 6 permainan : jadi wartawan, pemadam, dokter, bikin sim, jadi petugas pom bensin & nyetir mobil. yg lain rata2 cuma dapat 3-4 permainan ..


tapi karena waktu & jumlah pengunjung yg kelewat banyak, aku kecewa banget ga sempet bawa anak2 ke simulasi pesawat terbang, ke swalayan, jadi dokter gigi, ke resto pizza, pabrik susu, pabrik minuman mineral. aku & rombonganku cuma ngider di lantai dasar ...


ini pengalaman pertama sekolah kita ke Kidzania sih so belon pada pengalaman. mudah2an ini di bikin jadi program rutin karena aku pasti akan lebih siap kalo kita ke sini lagi.


di rombonganku ada Vivien, Michell & Nico dari kelas aku (TK A) + Dion, Calvin & Ellen dari TK B


aduh, yg aku kira mellow malah anteng2 aja. yg keliatannya gagah perkasa malah di tengah jalan ngadat ...




ga lama masuk jadi wartawan, Dion nangis. ngadat. nyebelin banget dah ah ! ... begitu Dion ok, Vivien jadi histeris waktu kita masuk ke pemadam kebakaran. aiihhh .. !! aku udah lagi kriting ama kepsek yg nyebelin, lagi sibuk mikir tempat mana lagi yg mau kita masukin, baru lega Dion anteng .. ah, ada lagi cobaan berikutnya .. & ngebujukin Vivien lebih lama lho .. harus aku ajak jalan muter dulu baru tenang dia ... aku betul2 lebih capek emosi dari pada capek fisik hari ini ...


jam 1.30 kita udah dikumpulin sama petugasnya & di giring keluar tepat jam 2. yah, belon puas nih ...


"cowonya pada ganteng2 ya" bisik mama Micky ngomentarin petugas2nya dari awal kita sampe di sana


"berondong pula, coy" tambah mama Justin


buset dah ! sempet2nya ... aku yg masih single aja malah lebih tertarik ngeliatin gedungnya, liftnya, permainan2nya ... kagak normal juga ni orang satu, ledek evelyn ... xixixi ...


pulangnya Calvin pindah duduk di sebelah kiriku & Dion jadi di sebelah kanan aku. kok jadi rasa2 punya anak kembar ya .. he he he ... apalagi karena pas makan aku nyuapin mereka bergantian


abis makan ... lha .. pada teler ?? .. dua2nya tidur nyender ke aku. sepanjang jalan pulang ke Bogor aku jadi ga berani gerak2. tangan kananku ampe pegel megangin kepala Dion


"Dion, bangun yuk" aku tepuk2 pipinya waktu kita udah makin deket dengan kecamatan 


"vin, bangun dong" aku gantian bangunin Calvin setelah Dion bangun tapi .... yaaa ... pas aku nengok ke kanan ... Dion udah pules lagi ! yee .. jadi aku bangunin dia & .... yaelah ! ... Dion bangun, Calvin molor lagi ... pret ! ... he he he ... aku ampe di ketawain mamanya Ellen ... aduh, begini rupanya rasanya kalo punya "anak kembar" ... he he he ...


puji sukur Tuhan kabulin doa kita. pulang pergi lancar. padahal rame berita kalo ni hari orang Jakarta mo pada demo. yah, mungkin ama Tuhan di bikin demonya belon mulai waktu kita sampe di Jakarta & demonya udah bubar waktu kita mo balik ke Bogor so kita ga kena macet ... he he he ...


aih, Tania - Cleymens - Calvin pulang ama bu guru ya. tadi pagi Tania di drop ke rumahku ama mamanya yg ga bisa nganterin. 


Cley kok ga ada yg jemput nih.


Calvin katanya mo di jemput di depan kompleks (kebetulan aku & 3 anak itu tinggal di kompleks perumahan yg sama) ..


"bu, aku bawa Tania ya" tegor mama Dion tiba2


lho ? tadi pagi bilang ga bisa ...


"ya, urusanku ternyata udah kelar" katanya bikin aku lega


"sore, bu" tiba2 papanya Calvin nongol


lho ? tadi bilang jemputnya di depan kompleks ..


"oh, saya pikir saya jemput di sini aja d" katanya bikin aku makin lega ... makasih, Tuhan ..


jadi tinggal Cleymens ..


"pak, boleh ga kita ikutan ?" aku nanya ke papanya Calvin


"ayo" dengan segala senang hati dia ngajak so meluncurlah kita pulang rame2 naik motor ... mudah2an ga gembos bannya ... he he he ...
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The long awaited day is finally here ! hooray !


everybody came at 7 am sharp so about 10 minutes later off we went to Kidzania theme park in Jakarta, the capital city by bus


I sat at the back row seat while the kids, headmaster & the teacher in the class for the 5 year olds were all at front


well, except Dion who persistently chose to sit next to me


Micky's mom offered me her squid dish .. mmm ... I love squid dish & it sure made me felt hungry so I too open my meal box .. lol .. I'm amazed Ellen's mom didn't get tempted though she had 2 people eating next to her .. lol ..


I was enjoying my meal when Justin & his mom came


"sorry .. Justin wants to pee" she grinned broadly to me


I thought she asked the bus driver to pull over so her son could pee but ... whatta ?? .. she opened a black plastic bag & Justin peed there ! I bursted out my laugh .. oh my .. !!


"miss, I wanna pee too" said Dion few minutes later when Justin's mom has just neatly wrapped the plastic bag that contains Justin's urine


"umm .. sorry, Dion wants to pee too. could you help him?" I asked Justin's mom who along with evelyn & the other mothers laughed


"it's just ur lucky day" teased evelyn


Jakarta is amazed me with its concrete buildings ..Micky's mom took pics of them ... I wanna have them too once you upload them to ur fb, I told her


"the guys hot" wishpered Micky's mom to me once we got at Kidzania & were greeted & escourted by its officers


I'm amazed the moms seemed to quickly recognize this .. lol .. while all that took my attention was the kids, the building & then the premise.. lol ..


it really made me wished I were a kid again ..


it was so crowdy ! I think there were about 1000 people because there was a elementary school that brought 200 people & there were about 3 elementary schools & I think about 4 kindergartens. it wasn't really comfortable for all of us ..


Dion cried & then Vivien too ... oh dear ... lucky, they could be soothed though it took longer time to make Vivien stop crying ..


thank God no traffic jam. I heard from the news that people in Jakarta would make demonstration in commemorating the president's one year in the house. we didn't get stuck by any traffic jam ..


rode on Calvin's dad's motorcycle along with Cleymens .. got home at around 4 pm .. it's been a long exciting but also exhausting day ..but I hope we can make this field trip again next year. there are plenty of games that we haven't played ..

Friday, October 22, 2010

a quiet day ... no, not quite ...

buat aku ni hari (Selasa, 19/10) lumayan tenang. kalo orang lain mungkin akan bilang tenang apaannya ? tetap aja riuh rendah sih ... he he he ...

aku bilang tenang krn ga ada kesibukan mendadak. ga harus terlalu jungkir balik di kelas. keributan antar anak minim terjadi. so aku, evelyn & para malaikat pelindung bisa sedikit menghela napas lega .. he he he ..

pagi2 ada kejutan. mamanya Clarissa bawa monitor komputer sumbangan dr kantor suaminya. wih, makasih banyak ! so komputer yg udah sebulanan ini cuti bisa berdinas lagi. perjalanan perdananya di pake buat ngetik surat pemberian nilai 2 anak sekolah minggu. 

"bu keke bisa masang monitornya?" mama Clarissa kaget denger aku udah kelar ngetik 2 surat

sebetulnya ga tau sih tapi aku perhatiin bagian belakang CPU sampe ahirnya nemu juga di mana kabel monitor harus di colok ... he he he ..

Justin masih kurang bisa mengendalikan diri. akibatnya yg duduk di depannya ribut protes .. ya krn di cubit lah, di dorong pake mejanya. biar pun temen2 sekelasnya udah lebih tau Justin itu kayak gimana & karenanya lebih bisa mentolerir segala kelakuannya tapi tetap ada batasnya juga ...

masalahnya Justin itu suka main cubit, dorong & peluk. & dia ga bisa ngukur kekuatannya. aku yg orang dewasa aja berasa sakitnya di cubit dia & sesak napas krn di peluk sekuat-kuatnya ama dia. apa lagi temen2nya yg badannya lebih kecil & pendek dari dia ?

Sekarang udah lumayan krn dia tau dia bisa menyakiti orang lain dg kelakuannya tapi jailnya itu masih ada & payahnya dia ga bisa ngerti kapan ulahnya itu jai sesuatu yg ngeganggu orang lain.

Krn bicara ga berhasil, tiap kali temen2nya udah teriak2 kesakitan / marah, aku bertindak dg misahin tempat duduknya sambil bilang temen2nya ga mau dia ada di dekat mereka. yah, belajar tentang konsekuensi dari perbuatan sendiri terhadap orang lain & ke diri sendiri.

Farell lain lagi. baru main 2-3 menit udah lapor ke aku "bu, tadi Charlos dorong aku" atau "bu, Wilson nakal" atau "bu, Agel injak kaki 
aku"

"rell, kalo lagi main yg namanya ke dorong, ke injek, ke sikut, ke pukul itu biasa. asal ga jadi luka, berdarah atau benjol aja"

gimana bisa sih main tapi takut / ga mau ke dorong, ke injek, ke sikut, ke pukul ?? karena itu jangan terlalu melindungi terhadap anak karena kecemasan & ketakutan dalam dirimu bisa nular ke mereka & yg ahirnya bisa bikin mereka berasa ga nyaman dg dirinya atau dg orang lain atau dg lingkungan dimana dia berada atau beraktivitas. kasian kan kalo udah begitu ...

Sekar lagi2 nangis waktu harus mewarnai. aku masih berusaha untuk memahami kenapa kok mewarnai jadi sesuatu yg bisa bikin dia ga pede & malah jadi ga berdaya. ada yg bisa bantu aku ? aku ini guru otodidak soalnya. kadang aku pengen banget punya latar belakang pendidikan dari psikologi anak karena di kasus2 tertentu aku berasa kayak orang buta yg merempe-rempe nyari jalannya sendiri.

di jam istirahat ...

"bu Keke, gendong.." tau2 Dea udah di depan aku dg 2 tangan terulur

"ogah ah" kataku spontan "bu Keke lagi cape nih"

"ah, gendong" rengeknya manja sambil pasang muka memelas. waduh, rayuan pulau kelapa nih judulnya "bu, gendong .."

a udah & he he he ... dia ketawa kesenengan begitu aku gendong

"udah ya. turun" kataku setelah kira2 semenit kemudian. jadi kuturunin dia & ....

"buuuuu ... gendong !" bagaikan koor, Devi, Clarissa, Tania, Jhunsan & Jevan teriak. karena ketutupan badan Dea yg tadi ku gendog, aku ga liat kalo mereka udah membentuk barisan rapi panjang di belakang Dea. ngapain ? oalah ... bikin antrian buat di gendong bu Keke .. buset dah ! gempor2 d situ ... he he he ..

pulangnya Dea ngerengek minta di gendong lagi jadi aku gendonglah dia. maksudnya aku sih mau kugendong dia keluar ke tempat mamanya nunggu tapi aku kaget banget waktu liat di samping kelas TK A ada kepsek. aduh, untung dia lagi sibuk sms so ga liat aku yg langsung buru2 ngerem & putar badan ... ngumpet di pojok kls ... he he he ...

soalnya kalo kepsek liat ... mmm ... pasti aku bakal di tegor karena dia bikin aturan bahwa guru ga boleh gendong murid kecuali kalo murid itu lagi sakit, cedera atau ngadat.

jangan manjain anak, katanya waktu aku sempet mempertanyakan alasan di balik larangan itu. alasan yg kurang masuk ke akalku karena aku pasti bilang ke anak2 yg minta di gendong tapi permintaannya ga aku kabulkan kenapa aku ga mau gendong mereka (alasanku biasanya mereka badannya besar, tinggi & berat jadi bu Keke ga kuat gendongnya) sementara temennya aku mau (& bisa) gendong. jadi bukan karena pilih kasih.

lagi pula menurut aku itu permainan. anak lompat, aku tarik 2 tangannya & hup .. dia aku gendong. paling lama juga cuma 5-10 detik dia aku gendong. trus dia lompat turun buat gantian dg temannya yg ngantri nunggu giliran. begitu terus ...

kalo alasannya karena ga mau dibanding-bandingin ... ah ..., dalam kesederhanaannya anak2 itu tau mereka cuma bisa main gendong-gendongan, kejar-kejaran, kitik-kitikan, ledek-ledekan & permainan2 kayak itu ama aku. mereka ga nuntut guru lain harus bisa jadi kayak aku. 

wali kelas TK B & evelyn pun juga ga jadi berasa tersaingi atau kalah beken di mata anak2 itu kok karena cuma dengan aku anak2 bisa main permainan manapun yg mereka mau.

buat aku pribadi, masa2 anak suka bermain, bermanja-manja & berinteraksi fisik kayak gitu adalah masa yg ga akan terulang & akan berlalu dg bertambahnya umur jadi nikmatilah masa2 itu selagi masih bisa & masih ada.

lagi pula, interaksi fisik yg positif seperti itu menimbulkan rasa nyaman karena anak merasa di sayang, di terima, di perhatikan & mendorong timbulnya rasa aman, rasa percaya diri bertambah, menolong untuk bikin anak itu lebih terbuka, luwes & berempati terhadap dirinya, orang lain & lingkungannya. 

karena itu jangan berani2 ngelarang aku gendong, peluk & cium anak muridku. semua itu punya arti besar untuk mereka & termasuk juga buat aku ...
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Today (Tuesday, Oct 19th) was quiet .. well ... yea, for me .. for others it looked as noisy as other days.

for me it was quiet because there wasn't any hustle bustle & minimum dispute among the kids occured today making me, evelyn & all the guarding angels siged in relief .. lol ..

there was a surprise in the morning. Clarissa's mom brought the computer's monitor from her husband's office to school. thanks a lot ! now the computer is working again. 

"you can install it?" Clarissa's mom surprised to know I've typed 2 letters.

well .. I didn't but I looked at the back of the CPU & found where to plug it.

in class Justin still unable to have self control toward his own behaviour. he made his friends protested because he pinched them & then pushed his desk to the chair infront of him.

though his friends have get to know him better now but their patience & tolarence for his behaviour can still grow thin if he doesn't stop & Justin doesn't know when to stop. 

he still can't control his impulse to pinch, hug & push & he's so strong. even I found his pinch hurting & felt like choking when he hug me. if an adult feels like that, how would it be felt for his classmates who are smaller & shorter than him ?

it took a while before he understood that he could hurt his friends by pinching or pushing or kicking or hugging them but if he still couldn't get the message though his friend has screamed & words failed, I'd interfere by make him sit in an isolate place all alone at the back or the corner of the classroom so he'd learn about consequences of his doing to others & to himself.

Farell is different. he was just played with his friends for about 2-3 minutes & he came to me "miss, Charlos pushed me" or "miss, Wilson is naughty" or "miss, Agel stepped on my feet"

Farell, those things happen when you're playing with your friends, I told him. as long as it doesn't make anybody hurt, bleed or lump .. then don't worry about it.

I thought how could you enjoy playing if you're afraid to be pushed or get stepped by 
others ?

so I urge parents / adults not to be overly anxious watching the kid(s) play because the kid(s) can sense your anxieties & might absorb them that at the end making the kid feel uneasy or insecure toward himself or herself, toward other people or toward the environment where the kid is playing or doing other activities.

in colouring session Sekar cried again .. I still try to understand why colouring can make her feel insecure & even helpless. can anyone help me with this ? being a self taught teacher making me with to have child psychology degree because some cases can make me feel as if I were a blind person walking in the dark ..

at recess time ...

"miss Keke, carry me" Dea (Andrea) stood infront of me with her arms stretched out to me

"oh no !" came my quick reply "I'm exhausted, you know .."

"carry me" she put a puppy dog look on her face. oh no ... you're not ... no .. no .. "miss, please .."

geez ...

ok, but just for a second & I carried her up. she giggled her joy & kissed me !

"miss ..! carry me !" cried out Devi, Clarissa, Tania, Jhunsan & Jevan in unison once I put Dea down. whatta ... ???

blocked by Dea's body made me didn't realize those kids formed a line behind her, all waiting eagerly in a line to be carried by me ... oh no ! .. but that's a game I use to play with the kids ..

after school Dea asked me to carry her again. I was about to carry her to where her mother waited for her when I was so surprised to see headmaster stood close to my classroom so I hurriedly ran back inside, glad she was busy with her cellphone that she didn't catch me carring a kid.

teachers are not allowed to carry the students except if the student is ill or hurt or have tantrum, headmaster once told me when I questioned the regulation. I still find it unexpectable by my logic.

favouritism issue ? mmm ... no need to worry the kids would think I were picky if I carry a kid & decline to carry the other because I always tell the kid my reason.

for me & the kids it's nothing but a fun game. kids know they can only play such game with me. they don't ask why other teachers won't play games like that with them. 

& evelyn & other teacher in the class for the 5 year olds don't have any objection or envy me for that.

the time when a kids happily clings to us won't last forever so if they still do, take the most of it.

beside, physical interaction gives comfort to any kid making him or her feels loved, accepted & safe. grew self confident & won't make him or her stiff to express their feelings physically.

& therefore, never ever forbid me from hugging, kissing or carrying my student or any other kid ..