I need to remind these stuff to myself:
If I let this go for too long, I might...
Go into another blog hiatus
I've been in blog hiatus for two years and I can't let myself go into another hiatus, not after I had written in my post on the last day of 2025 that I would blog again. That was actually one of my 2026 resolutions and it still is.
I just got caught with the freezing winter, vlogging, swinging mood and the constant feeling of not having enough energy to run my day. Winter blues, loneliness and boredom are bad mixture.
Well, I shouldn't make excuses but those were and are the things I dealt with on daily basis.
The good thing is, I have started writing again. I join this writer's group in Facebook and about 2 weeks ago, I saw its flyer on my newsfeed. They were announcing about one year writing event. One story every week for a year. Should have at least 700 words in every story.
I had published five anthology books but after the last book, my life went into a twirl and I lost interest in writing though it doesn't mean that my mind went blank from stories, no, I had so many stories filled my mind and sometimes it drove me crazy because I didn't want to write but yet there were many ideas came to my mind, asking to be written into stories.
So after gone into more than two years writing hiatus, I thought I needed an exercise and I enlisted myself in that writing event and whoa! Once I got back into it, ideas just flooded in. While other participants found it hard to reach the 700 words term, I found it hard to keep it under 700 words. Lol. Yes. In the first week my story went up to 2,221 words and the second week was 1,837 words. I was like a bursting dam.
I am a writer, can't deny it. It's not just a hobby. It's a passion. But since it's not a job, there's no pressure for me to write and this has good and bad effects on me. First, I haven't made any money out of it, at least not yet. Second, I don't have self discipline which means I don't set any writing schedule.
Some time ago I read somewhere about this writer that said writers need to have a writing daily schedule and she suggested to write 100 words a day. Well, it's good way to practice if you want to become a novelist but either I'm an ADHD or I had been tied to schedule most of my life from the time I was in school to the time when I became a white-collar worker, my free spirit was crying for freedom and so I couldn't and still can't tied myself into a schedule. The only schedule I have since I became a full time housewife is for the chores and still, I go flexible on it.
Anyway, do you think I need to have a schedule? Say, Monday to vlog, Tuesday to blog, Wednesday for the writing event? Haha. I dunno. All I know is that I have to blog or I might go into another blog hiatus without me realizing it.
Maybe I should blog at least once a week.
I just remembered, I used to make this blog bilingual: Indonesian and English. Starting this year, it's only in English, so to my fellow Indonesian who read this, I'm sorry. You can copy paste the text in this post to Google Translate.
